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[Monday August 22nd, 2005] [ mood | content ] [ music | i can tell - saosin ] wow i haven't updated this thing in a while. well, my summer has been pretty bad. my grandma passing away and stuff. and the whole thing with "him" isn't going so well. i know i can't have him, but i guess i just can't let go. i'll just have to deal. i don't know what i'll do if i end up going to the same highschool as him. i'd probably never speak to him, and he'd never acknowledge me either. or he could be nice and say hello everyday. i don't know with him. okay i'll update a little later ♥ caity 0 Beep Beep!

[Friday June 24th, 2005] __heartxcore __heartxcore __heartxcore 0 Beep Beep!

[Wednesday June 22nd, 2005] [ mood | angry ] [ music | taking back sunday ] okay so. im like 85% sure that im grounded all summer. so that means no computer, no going out, getting up by 9 a.m. and being in bed by 10 p.m. this is torture. i really dont even know what the big problem was anyway. THEY'RE JUST CLOTHES. grr so today i got all my final (like average of all the marking periods) grades for the year math honors - 86 B literature - 95 A science - 93 A- english - 94 A social studies - 94 A math honors 2 - 87 B+ are those grades really that effing bad? no. i didnt think so. i seriously don't know what my aunt expects from me. i try and try and try but nothing ever pleases her. i get a 95 on my math test and she says "so what, you're still not getting an A in the class." ITS HONORS. i dont really think she gets the pressure that im under. i got thrown into the honors course in the middle of the first marking period, without any knowledge of the math i was learning. and i end up with a B and a B+. so i get punished. and now she's thinking of taking me out of the honors class. for what? so i can sit and take the mainstream class. again? screw that. i don't care what she says. im staying in that class cause i deserve it. i worked for it. i hope my uncle sees the light in this, the positive side. but knowing my aunt she'll brainwash him into thinking it's due to my laziness. and im not lazy. mrs. caputo (my math teacher) even wrote in my yearbook today "you work hard. im so proud of you!" and now i get punished for trying my hardest? i cant WAIT until she sits at my graduation next year, knowing that im going to some catholic school when i could accel at BCA. and she'll sit there knowing that she pulled me out of the math class, leaving me a small percentage to pass the BCA admissions test. i just hope she changes her mind, and gets some bipolar medication. okay im glad that's over ♥ caity 0 Beep Beep!

[Monday June 20th, 2005] [ music | brand new ] grr im not in a very good mood so i figured i'd post some lyrics. "moshi moshi" by brand new think I'm crazy, baby, let you off the hook to easy If you were a telephone, you'd still be off the hook This is my last leg Been awake for days In a minute I'll die of starvation I'll come back a ghost if I can haunt you and float around your room. What do I do when you get close? If I kissed your neck, would you slit my throat? Are you thinking of me when you're putting on your makeup, darling, and dying your hair like you do Well you're wasting time if you're trying to impress me I waste all my time just thinking of you And I'm not imagining how you give me the shivers, standing up to your waist in your river You're the sweetest boat-builder I think I've ever seen Dream in Japanese, dream in Japanese, some language I don't even know how to speak You're still pretty and I am still choked up, it's probably just the same The more I hang around you, the more hang-ups I get (more hang-ups I get) Are you thinking of me when you're putting on your makeup, darling, and dying your hair like you do? (dying your hair like you do) Well you're wasting time if you're trying to impress me I waste all my time just thinking of you I know that you're an angel, though you could never stay true (you could never stay true) Hey angel, I think your halo has a screw loose, 'cause you dropped me like a brick off the rooftop of your high school Could I watch the next time you're applying your eyeliner? I waste all my time just thinking of you ♥ caity 0 Beep Beep!

[Monday June 20th, 2005] [ mood | cold ] [ music | under0ath ] hello there. today was my last day of exams ::yelps in pleasure:: i had english and social studies. english was so effin easy gosh. they really need to challenge us more. but ehh i guess my 1% chance of getting into honors next year might be a good thing. so yeah, i definately passed her exam. social studies was just friggin stupid. i dont even wanna get into it lol. mmhmm yeah. im done ♥ caity 0 Beep Beep!

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